Hmm... I don't have any personal favourites... hmm... I just like reading back on 'em, even though most of them sound so cheesy now. =P, I guess that's what happens as we get older... we always look weirder in the past...

When I first saw you,
I couldn't keep my eyes away,
Because when I do,
I thought I couldn't live another day.

What was this feeling?
I really didn't know,
Never did I realize why my heart was reeling,
And why my feet just wouldn't go.

There was a time when I thought,
What money could have bought,
Lots of things, cars, houses, sometimes friends too,
Now I know the one thing I can't buy is you.

Once, I saw you smile,
This lingered in my mind awhile,
I had never seen a smile so beautiful,
And never had anyone seemed so cool.

I thought about this, for a pretty long time,
Why I felt this way about you, just you,
Why I couldn't get you out of my mind,
The answer came from the last place I expected it to.

You were the one who told me,
Why I felt so funny,
You told me, 'It's love, you see.'
'It's natural, like the way it can be sunny.'

Before you left, I told you what I felt,
About who I really liked, this one special girl,
You listened intently, as your name was spelt,
As I talked about the way you changed my world.

When I finished, I thought you'd never talk to me again,
But what a surprise I got when you said you felt the same,
That you had liked me too, from the very start,
I had no idea we would come to this part.

Going through a lot, more than just adventures,
Heaving ourselves through life's little tortures,
We'll always be more than just friends,
From now, till forever, till this world ends.

--Leon
2002.

Hahah Eileen, I wonder if I ever sent this one to you...? It's kinda old, and my memory of the stuff I sent isn't too good, ya kno? ^_^...

'Hey granpa!', 'Hi granpa!',
That's what makes his day,
From those loving people,
Who greet him on the way.

Now let me tell you 'bout these special people,
The wonderful granddaughters who made a difference,
To how life went by for this old man who's feeble,
And what memories he kept for reference.

Let me tell you a little 'bout this jolly old man,
He's not old actually, you know old people? This fella' ran!
But still he's their granpa, and granpa's have things to do,
Like listen to his granddaughters and help 'em out too.

Now these galz are all special in their own little ways,
And their good ol' granpa does whatever she or she says,
Of course he's happy 'bout it, he's their granpa!
So why not help them out a little, huh?

His granddaughters, that's one interesting thing,
All of them are so cute and cuddly, I wonder what misfortune they could bring?
Hey hey hey, they're still kids, a big bundle of fun,
That's what he says, they're like bright rays of the sun!

This little ol' man just loves to be called just that,
Granpa. Has a nice ring to a fictionous fact,
Sometimes he wonders if that's one-too-many a granddaughter,
But he changes his mind as he listens to their infectious laughter.

Wha' 'bout us granpa? They might as well ask,
Well, to say something about them is one tedious task,
Cause he doesn't know what to say! He plainly forgot!
Don't kill him because of just that ya' crazy lot!

They don't like their pictures taken, that's what he can remember,
Maybe he can get one, but it hasta be before December,
Cause they might not be there anymore,
Then he won't be hearing their footsteps on his school's floor.

So here he is, writing all this down,
And as usual, acting like a clown,
So here's granpa signing off ya crazy kids,
And here's a hug and a big, granpaish kiss...!

-- *Muakz* Granpa. ^_^ : : huggles : :

Weeeeelll... I'm just posting for fun, yah... this one's for another friend about a friend who went to a faraway place, well, Austrailia, to be exact..

May you spend everyday,
In the happiest way,
Living life to the fullest,
Yourself being the coolest.

My my, time sure does fly,
It seems like yesterday we said our first 'Hi',
Now it's a lot different from that distant start,
Let's just say you've left footprints in my heart.

So you'll be going overseas,
And our time together I shall miss,
Someday, somewhere we shall meet again,
Through that our friendship will still remain.

So we'll lose contact for awhile,
Can't see your happy face or your gleeful smile,
Dang I'll miss those good times and a lot more,
Life's gonna be a bit more of a bore.

Hey I'm not worried about it too much,
There's always a way like the Internet or such,
But then there's a way that can also cross the seas:
We'll always meet again in dreams and memories.

-- Leon,
The Year 2001.

Hm... nothing much to talk about these days... but yeah, I finally got to see the tiny speck that is mars! ^_^ At long last, clear skies reigned over my area. Keke, didn't make much of a diff anyway, it was so small.

Hm... does anyone think that I should post some weird stuff I wrote some time ago...? I dunno, I feel kinda bored... and not that many people know of the stuff... though it is kinda interesting, I guess... Eileen raves about how good it is, but I dunno... hmm... maybe some other time? *shrug*

Blehh! This is just not fair~! I have waited hours and hours in the night and yet it always is cloudy cloudy and cloudy. =P! This is the second night already...! I think I'll try the third, and then just give up if it's cloudy again... bleh.

Oh well.. feeling extremely tired now... haven't had the minimum of 8 hours of sleep these days... it's just unfair. >_< Oh well, I just hope the 3 day weekend we'll get will supply me with enough sleep for a long time... ^_^. Oh well.

Gar: Well, I suppose you can only make the decision based upon your feelings at that time, and in the future. If you really do love someone, you'd probably not care about his physical appearance. Love is strange in that sense... and yeah, love at first sight in this case applies to physical appearance mostly... not like we humans would be able to see some kind of 'kindly aura' around a person and instantly like him/her... I think if we did, the world would go to heck. =P~

Anyway, it's 12.30 AM, and it's school tomorrow damnit. Oh well. Nitez peepz~!

*hums* Well, life is boring sometimes... that's life. But then again, there are those days when everything is really, really... perfect. I dunno. Been awhile since I've had one of those days, yeh... long long while. =p, oh well, guess we can't have too many of those or life will be too fun, strangely enough.

Anyway, I think tonight's the night that mars will appear in as much glory as it can muster. Either this night, or tomorrow night, but hell, I'm going for both! Though it's at midnight, and I've definately got school, blehhhh~! School will be school I guess... not yet important enough to make me worry my butt off it.

SuZ: Well, Chicken Soup is an excellent book for any -- and practically every -- one. It's just one of 'those' books eh. ^_^ I always wonder whether my life can turn out like one of the stories in a CS book... (that was *not* Counter-Strike, for those players out there). And Suz, write letters! I've been writing them for... a long long time now. Yes, they may seem long, tiring, and boring, but hey, getting mail is one of the most enjoyable things a teenager could ever want. I know I've had my fair share. Incidentally, I've been writing to Aussie... Sueyi and Andrea. Ask Eileen, I think she knows...? ^_^!

Ah well... and there's Jon, screaming around about this game he's playing... =p... I'm a lucky person, a very lucky person... yet there are times when I just can't seem to get the words that mean so much to someone else out of these damn lips of mine... always a fault I've tried to fix, but still I have had no success... *sigh* the times I could have had... ah well. Friends and family are really the very important things in my life, I guess, and hell yeah I've long realized the importance of keeping in touch... just hope that they also have the time to give me a call sometime... ^_^! There was this thing I wrote for a friend overseas... hehe, just don't have it on this particular computer.. =P~

My family, particularly my parents, are getting so stressed out nowadays... they're a cool bunch, but I wish I could just do something useful for once to make 'em happier, and to make their life easier. I guess every right-minded fella would want that, yeah... just don't know how, don't know the ways... and time passes, ever flowing, never stopping... we grow older and older, and our troubles get worse...

o_O, that was kinda weird. Chu~

Heyyy...! Nothing to talk about again.. had a headache since this morning.. I think I'm coming down with something... -_-. =P.

Anyway, Eileen, having a really rainy night on the 13th floor is (in my opinion) the best conditions to sleep! How could you say that it's baddd...? -_-, oh well, that's just me anyway.

Exam results (most of them) are out now, and boy I suck nowadays.. =P, oh well... tomorrow will bring worse marks, I think, since I have 2 presentations to do... ahhhhh...! Bleh.

*yawn* Nothing much to talk about anymore I suppose... the days have been kinda boring since we're just discussing exam papers and stuff... next week should be pretty interesting, as there will be 2 moons in the sky! Planning to ask Atif to go out and watch it with me... and a few other guys, and perhaps some girls if I'm lucky. ^_^ I'm not *that* kinda guy, do note. =p, they're friends. ^o^

Anyway, nothing to post now. Going off now.

Chuu~

Hmm hmm... wotta day...! Went out with the guys again (it's always with the guys, what a social life I live). Anyway, blasted people, shot lots, died a few hundred times, that kinda thing... yep, that's a fun day. =P~!

Watched Bad Boys II. Really quite funny I suppose, lotsa humour and stuff like that... I guess a show with Will Smith in it should be that way. Anyway, hope I have lots more time to watch movies and stuff I guess.

To Su-chan: Heyyyyy~! Don't close down/erase your blog! It doesn't matter if you can't think of anything philosophical to write and type about, there's always another time... like this deep thinking stuff. Blogs are meant to hold lots and lots of info on what that person did on that day, or the days before, or the days after I guess.

Life can be the same old routine I guess. One just has to look at it in many different ways and stuff... meet new people? Get to know old ones better dear... sometimes people you know for a long time can surprise you after you get to know them better. Anyway, life's like that most times. Dude, people do read your blog. People like your friends, me... you know, these kinds of people. ^_^ Cheer up, life may seem bad but there's always an up side to everything... well, almost everything.

Dear, I'm absolutely POSITIVE you can type nicely if you just bothered to type nicely... I've seen you in chat rooms and stuff... you're pretty good, ya kno. ^_^. Anyway, the way you type is like your personality online... and no worries about swearing... girls can swear lots too... equal rights and all that shit...

Pika pika~

Dum da dum dum dum dum~! Exams are over, woo... ^_^.

Congrats to Eileen... your mom lets you go! Cooooooool~! And yes, you ARE going bonkers dear. Yaythe , piccieeess! ^_^ Heheh, anyway, hope you have lotsa fun there. And hope that you actually have a computer to contact grampiez~! ^_^.

Well anyway, enjoy your stay there dear! This dumb bug has annoyed me long enough, so yeah, thanks for the site reference to Unca Swinky too dear! Fixed now, I think.

Gotta go then~

*yawn*

Exams are a bore, but I love a challenge sometimes... most times the exams give me a headache of a huge challenge, but hey... ^_^

Anyway Eileen, if you wanna go, go~ I know how much you'd like to go to Japan for a period of time. Wait, that's an understatement, I think you'd go ABSOLUTELY bonkers if you could. ^_^, you should go. Learn about Japan and it's culture, it's people, their lifestyle... the anime. =).

Don't worry bout us here in Malaysia... at least we'll know you're enjoying yourself yah~? And there's usually a next time, right? Cheerz!

But... TAKE PICCIEESSS!!! I can't stress enough on this point. You go, take piccies. Lots, of piccies. Lots and lots and lots of piccies. ^_^! It would make grampiez so so so happy to actually SEE you enjoying yourself. *grinz* It's not blackmail dear, it's called watching you grow up.

*yawn* More exams tomorrow I guess... not too bad, but exams will be exams.

Hmm hmm... what a day.

Woke up at 7.30 a.m, took a shower, played some games till 8.10, called up Marcus to go to school.

"I'm sorry ah Leon, your friend is still sleeping." What the.. tell me leave at 8.30... blehh. Went to his house, jumped on his bed, whacked him with a pillow, and finally he leaves. Reached school at 9.30, but played anyway. Basketball all the way, with some volleyball for fun. ^_^ Went to Giant for brunch, then went home. ^_^

Gamed around for awhile, finding stuff to do... then at night, Atif called me up for basketball again, so I went... kinda cool... stayed till 12, talking with Lee, Natelie, CQ and Stiffy... ^_^. Loads fun to do that nowadays... life is a bit too fast paced nowadays. Need slowdowns lots of times... otherwise it's kinda meaningless to live.

Spent quite a lot of time messaging Huey Shyan now and again, during and after bball. After all this time, I still have lotsa feelings for this now-growing teen. =), I guess it's just an old flame that won't die so easily, but it's an old flame nonetheless, so my hopes are still around. Watching people grow up around me is sometimes an enlightening, enjoyable, yet perhaps painful thing. People change.

Nitez~

To Leen: Tell SuZ that being a no one isn't better... being a no one means that no one will remember you if you get killed, not 'not killed'. Get what I mean? Even if you're a no one, it doesn't mean that you won't get killed. It just means that no one will miss you, remember you, or mourn for you when you die. I don't think anybody's a 'no-one' to me. =), life's bad enough as it is.

To Leen: Well, the real world really isn't just FULL of sorrow... you have to look at life differently to make it seem happier. God knows how many things can seem good after awhile of thinking... =)
Quote : "There is ultimately nothing but sorrow in life. It is freedom from desire which frees us from sorrow" Get what it means? Because of our desires, our needs, our wants, our many many wishes, we feel sorrow because WE DON'T OR CAN'T HAVE THOSE THINGS! Confucious was right in saying freedom from desire frees us from sorrow. ^_^.

=P, I'm typing alot again... bad sign... good sign... somewhere in between...

/question/
why are we all here? is this a question that we, as people don't consider as important as finding out stupid scientific facts that don't prove much?

This I believe is from Jo's Blog (Eileen's friend). Well, I think the question has been asked... dozens of times. There are really a bunch of answers because a lot of people have different views on life.
For the optimistic, I guess we're here on this earth, alive, because we were all meant to do something, something great.
For the pessimistic, we're all here to live our lives in misery and sorrow. We're an experiment God started to amuse himself.
For the scientific, we're here because we were lucky enough to be born. Millions of sperms and all that stuff. =For me, I guess we're here because we just are. People consider questions like that, unconciously maybe, a great number of times. I dunno, that's what I think. =P, that, and my fingers are itchy.

The questions on life and reality are weird... many answers, all acceptable.

Chika~

*siigghhhHhhHhh* (Yes Eileen, I'll stop sighing someday)

Feeling nostalgic now... =P, read all my old entries of my big green book... the sick sad puppy love stories... the immensely long and fact filled poems... the memorable quotes of past friends... the feelings of now-buried love floating around my head once more... =\, yeap, that kinda mushy, gayish stuff. Wish I had a bottle of 'something' to cheerz with~! =).

Reading back on the many things I messed up back then... some things I'd forgotten had happened... some wishes unfulfilled... dreams shattered... hearts broken... I used to be a really really really weird person, it seems. Friends that have changed much over the years... some not at all... others, become stranger and farther away from me... *sigh* I guess time really isn't a very forgiving person.

Thinking back, 3 years ago.. hahah, THAT was an opportunity that I shouldn't have missed, but I turned away when it was right in front of me. The dream that was reality, standing in front of me, smiling... then gone, because I was a nerdy shy guy. -_o, though I can't blame myself, I do anyway. I think I can still remember what she wore that night... that long, long night... white shirt, multi-coloured skirt... heels, black.... slightly reddish lipstick... cheeks that glowed with the room light... eyes that sparkled behind the golden frames of her glasses...

*sigh* After her performance, up on the balcony... just me and her... the right time, right place, right moment... and then... *screams* I can't take the nostalgia... not in public no. =P~!

*pants* Right, now that was extremely.. weird. =\, guess it's back to the real world my friend *pats self*.

Chika.

Well, these days are certainly eventful... =\, in a bad way mostly. *sigh* The world is going nuts again.

Well, for one thing, I got sick, which really doesn't happen the much, and yeah, obviously it sucks. =P. I'd rather be healthy and go to school most times. ^_^. Blehh..

Hmmh... nothing much to say I guess. Class is planning a trip to Langkawi for our class trip. O_O, it'll be fun and relaxing I guess, but kinda money burning... some of the guys just can't wait for the booze to start flowing... talks of Jack Daniels, Vodka, yadda yadda... thankfully, I'm staying out of it I guess... unless of course a 3-5 year old bottle of wine (good brand, mind. Maybe a chivas, is it spelled like that?) comes along for a lower price.. mm... will enjoy then. The crashing beach, a bottle of chilled wine... ahh... that'll be good. =).

Chika~

Ladana~! I have nothing better to do anymore... just go online, check a few things, and back to Helbreath it is. Blehh... I lead a boring life nowadays...

Nothing much to say bout school... quite a few suspensions nowadays, fights and stuff... I guess school's starting to go to the dogs eh.

*sigh*