From time to time teenagers one day or another tell me something about the personal part of their lives. They want to talk about their relationships or lack of one... I dunno. =\.

Some of my friends have had relationships before. Some don't. Bah I have no idea how to type my thoughts out right now. T_T.

In my still short life so far, I've seen that being in a relationship is not something anyone should play with. To me, making a choice means sticking with it for a long, long time, if not forever. I've only had one relationship, but that one is still going strong. My previous choices had only 1 error, and that error I've seen now with the help of my friend... =\. My current choice is certainly the best and last one I'll ever make ^_^.

Anyway, I've come to find that most girls at our age are just bullshitting when they say "I'm looking for a nice guy". That's almost NEVER true, because they look for the jerks who seem cool or funny or intriguing to them. I don't know if they notice it, but they seem to forget that there are nice guys all around them. Who's that guy who listens to you when you call at 2 AM to bitch about something? Who's the guy who trucks you around wherever you wanna go, just because you asked nicely? Who's the guy who you turn to when you're feeling down? Those are nice guys.

Guys and girls are different in how they're attracted to each other I guess. Guys will get to know a woman, get to know her better, and slowly fall in love with her. It always happens I suppose. The guy will be super-extra nice to the woman, trying to make her see him. I don't know how to explain how I think girls are attracted to us, but it's something like "if I'm your friend, I'm only going to be friends." It's a rare sight to see people together when they were old friends before. I mean, that's for the younger generation nowadays. I guess women will go for the nice guys once they've realized what kind of guy is really what they should go for. I guess it takes a lot of time for them to realize it. Perhaps that is why my case is different? :D I dunno. ^_^

I suppose the term "nice guys finish last" would apply here, I dunno.

I think society now places too much emphasis on getting a girl/boyfriend. Kids these days... I mean, what's the point of getting in a relationship for less than 2 years? What the hell's the point of getting in a relationship with a person who you knew for less than 2 years? And what the hell is up with people asking for "couple" and shit like that? I do not think it is erm... right. I mean, doesn't it just feel funny, when someone asks "Can you be my girl/boyfriend?" "Can you couple with me?" That's just wrong.

I hold strongly to the older way of just letting it happen. Yes I'm old-fashioned, no I won't say how.

Kids these days... what is the world coming to? *shakes head sadly*. Too much time spent glued to the TV or typing useless and insincere messages to friends online, maybe. Ah well.

Have you ever thought about who you'd like to be with when you grow old? Have you ever thought about how many kids you'd like? Would you like a boy or girl first? What names you'd like to give them? Have you ever wondered what it would be like to see your son or daughter play? Learn? Laugh? Smile? Have you ever thought of the romantic things you could do with someone else? Have you ever thought about how you'd face their family? Have you ever wondered what it would be like to say nothing to someone but just enjoy his/her company? Ever enjoy doing nothing at all? Ever wonder what life would be with someone else? Have you ever thought about how you'd work to make someone else happy? Not yourself happy? How many times have you thought about a person special to you? Have you ever smiled for no apparent reason other than to see him/her? Have you thought about the small, little things in a person that makes you truly happy? Have you thought about being with someone, no matter what happens?

I certainly have.

Ah yes, I haven't posted in what, 3 weeks? ^^" Sorry people, just didn't really have anything to say. Life's been pretty much going on at a constant and content pace. I'm coping quite well with my studies, but unfortunately haven't made any friends in college. Bleh -_-.

Other than that, I suppose that life is good, though friends fade away and forget about you. Life has a way of piling things that someone must do so much that that someone will have so little time to truly enjoy what it means to be human. Yes, we all work hard to succeed in life, but what is success without anyone to share it with? I suppose in the long run, your little handful of friends is all you're going to have. I know not everyone will want to set a limit to their success, their achievements, their possessions, but I for one would just like a good home, a good job, my lovely lady, and a bunch of great friends. =
Ah well. The river of time flows on, drowning those who cannot keep up to the current. Never linger too long in the past, thinking about how it was like in the old days. It's a new world out there, where people change and things go hellishly wrong. Don't paddle too fast and leave everyone else behind as you chase your dreams. Soon you'll find that you're so far ahead, there's no one else who's there with you. Floating along the current is what one should try to do. Fight those swirling whirlpools that are obstacles which confuse you and slow you down. Choose the paths that you want to go on as the river splits. Choose the right ones, if you can. The slow, meandering ones are easy but may go on slow forever. The fast rapids take hard work to overcome, but will give you peace in the end. Pick one, any one.

People grow up, grow old. Seems like time passes all too fast now, as all the friends I used to have are slowly growing up, growing old, growing apart from me... all I have left are the closest of friends, and some acquantainces... the rest of them just seemed to drift away... either through time or distance, or maybe even a change in state of mind, lots of people forget about me... ah well. My granddaughters have all grown up I suppose, with only 1 or 2 left remembering what I am to them.

I suppose this is what people said last time: Cherish your friends, keep them close, try not to lose touch of them. Sadly, I've feared that reality is far from that, and it is true. Our lives are just so full of things to do like work, play, relationships, that we lose touch of how life used to be so simple. It used to be a game of tag, or just sipping drinks en masse in the heat. It's all gone now. (of course we still yam cha, but that's fast fading too)

I never did say I wanted to grow up so fast... being young was great, when you could see everyone you knew in one place, for a very long time. It kinda gets to you that these faces are now fading slowly from memory with each passing day. =\...

We always say we'd keep in touch once we've 'made it in life', but when will that ever happen? We'll just be looking for more to have a better life, to improve ourselves. I don't want that to happen. I'll reach a certain point, and stay there, content with life. Do you all know what you want in life? I'd just like a nice, cozy apartment, maybe a semi-d...

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