The more bitter aspects of life have been circulating in my head, ever spinning their lies and truths on what life can really be... I dunno, it's just one of those nights...

Some people really irritate me... a little, alot, so much I could despise them... it doesn't really matter... point is, people are like that, and I am just the person who does not approve on what might be normal behaviour and attitude in someone... I guess people will be people sometimes... most times, actually...

It is to my greatest discontent that I find my closer friends have such insanely irritating quirks and sometimes even personalities that meet my utmost DISapproval... I dunno... people will be people... people can change yes, but people can ALSO stay the same...

What's up with bragging... or lying, for that matter, since both can be considered one. Do we do it to just puff up our importance, thinking it fun? Or is it just our human in us? Hm... can't say anything to that. I've practiced that art countless times I admit...

What's wrong with pictures too...? I dunno... I can't say that pictures are *my* life... but they ARE stilled MEMORIES of life... except perhaps for pictures of scenery... even then there is art in that... because of all the time I used just thinking (it wasn't very well spent, but I am frivolous), I've found that pictures are just... good. I dunno... pictures remind me so much of what life used to be, or how my friends used to look like... or best yet, the good times I had at that particular event/occasion/person... past that, I could always say pictures bring me great content, just because they're pictures of people I know... automatically I can remember a few good times I had... it's always been like that for some reason. Maybe now you know why I like taking pictures of you now Eileen, though my mind is irrational at times...

Melanchony is the mood tonight... ahah, I guess my brain is just addled with wine... it's brought out what I really think of things...

Love... yes, the exhausted topic that everyone knows but not many actually have, deep in their hearts, so deep that words would not be needed to show it... it's all in the eyes, I think... ahahahahh... love is extremely strange... for some people, they just look for looks... for others, usually those who don't look heart-stoppingly beautiful, they take time to be noticed... I dunno, I've had that feeling a time or two... hahah... I'm not telling though. ^_^... but then again, there is the kind of feeling one gets upon seeing someone.. that could be love at first sight, I think so... I've had that ONCE, and ONLY once... ever since that time four years ago, I'm still hooked on to that ONE person... fortunately or otherwise... ahahah... have YOU ever done that?

But then again, there is that THIRD kind of love: the love of the people closest to you... those that have laughed and suffered through life with you... people like your bestest friends... your family.. your girl/boyfriend.. I dunno, anyone... I can say that I love many people in this instance... people like Eileen, the best and most loving granddaughter I have ever had.. no matter what she says of herself, no matter how much she may hate my bullying ways, I will still love her as my granddaughter, and as my friend... speaking of friends, I could also say I love Wey Ping... best friends for four years, and still going strong! =)... we've had our laughs, and our differences, but friends forgive and accept the quirks and ways of others... what are friends for eh. I will say that I love my family... since they've been with me longest... all my life, heheh... they've shown me the ways of life, and how to live them... that kinda thing I guess... they've forgiven the insane amount of wrongs I've done, and they usually don't remember them forever... hehe... family is cool...

Anyway, I think that's enough for now... ^_^ may all your lives be peaceful, joyous, and long..

-- Leon
21st September, 2003