Eileen: *laughs innocently* Well now Eileen, I *am* your grampiez and all, so yeah, I'll be expecting lots and lots of piccies of your social! ^_^, just for a taste and a view on your life in Aussie dear, with all your friends. Heheh, even YOU are bringing a camera... but then again, I don't really trust you with taking pictures... -_-, you always seem to 'not be there'. ^_^.

Mm... well, here's another one of my poems, since all of you think they're really good... though I have my own misgivings. -_-", enjoy though~

I'm so depressed, very sad you see,
As the world turns worse, as worse as it could be,
I guess I'm just getting old and senile these days,
But I really don't know now whether optimism pays.

Sometimes I wonder, what am I ever gonna be?
Some sweeper, a doctor, many choices you see,
But I always don't know, cause I don't have an aim,
Since I never know what I do, be it for riches or for fame.

I know most people don't have this kinda trouble,
It seems I have all the bad luck, make that double,
I have some luck, I know that's true,
But I always wondered where'd that luck go to...

There were times when I thought of ending my life,
Putting a stop to all that sorrow and stife,
But then I think of all the friends that I know,
Family and people that would grieve if I were to go.

So I get myself together, and put on a brave face,
To win this never ending insane rat race,
Hopefully I'll make it out, alive and very much sane,
Or I could die once, and let my life wane...

Now there's this girl I like, I really like her alot,
And most times I'm happy since she's more cheery than not,
The times when I'm not are when I see her concerned or sad,
It usually means that something happened and it's really bad.

I know she'll do fine in her studies and such,
But I'm the type who worries so very much,
The pain sometimes is a hard thing to take,
But I guess there's a smile I could always fake.

In the end, the troubles are only in my mind,
Where all restrictions and limits are that anyone could find,
So now I put my troubled mind to sleep,
And hope that that sleep is really quite deep...

--Leon
23rd of January 2003