Hmm hmm... just feeling... happy, and grateful. My life is a good one, and I really hope that it'll be a very long one.

I love this little lady that life has brought to me. She is just the most darling little person I've ever known... she's a funny, intelligent, cute, loving, scheming, wonderful, beautiful, childish woman. Effortlessly charming, forever mine. ^_^...

I don't think I've ever had a time where I regretted this choice, this feeling, this responsibility. I hope I never will. I want to keep it like this forever and ever, my goal in life being to make this darling little lady of mine smile, smile, and smile. I'll do anything to make her smile... and laugh, if it's possible. ^_^... no matter how dumb some things can be, the sound of her laughter will make it all up...

At least it's not all smiles... sometimes, she doesn't want to smile. =( She frowns, disappointed at something. That sucks. ><. I try my very very bestest to make her life one of happiness and joy.. too bad I do things that disappoint her too.. =(... oh well. At least she forgives me for being 'dumb and stony.' ^_^...

Sometimes she cries... that's one of the worst things. I don't know what to do but give her a hug and be as soft a pillow as possible.. I don't say anything, cause I have nothing to say... I suck at comforting people, but at least she can talk to me! ^_^... in the end, I do stupid things to make her smile once more. That makes me feel our time together will be a great and wonderful time. Tears will turn into laughter, always.

There are or were times where I worry about her, about whether we'll work out, whether she's safe and sound, going out with someone I don't know, whether she truly does want me for who I am. I know now that many of those worries are now gone. I am sure she wants me for me, and nothing else. Even though I'm all dumb, stony and slow, she forgives me for all that, she accepts all those traits, and I think she even thinks it's good, I dunno. I still worry for her though, because I don't want her to worry about stuff about me. I want her to live a great life, with me by her side. I don't want to see her all worried and sad. Big smiles! ^_^...

I've done so many things with her that make her happy, but there is always some other thing I haven't done. I don't think there will ever be the biggest smile ever, because her smiles will just keep getting bigger the longer we're together. Each small thing we do builds up the happiness, and the big things release it, making us express it with big big big smiles... surprises don't always work well, but one can prepare for it! ^_^...

Just sitting around or lying down enjoying someone's company is not a thing just anyone can do. ^_^ I love her smell, her presence in the room, her sleeping face, her confused look, the feel of her hair through my fingers, the little contours of her figure, her loud guffaws of laughter, her evil grins, her big, happy smile the most of all. I don't think there's anything I'd like to change about her.

Once upon a time, a not so long time ago, in a land called Malaysia, on a park bench in a cloudy evening, I thought that I'd never find that one person who will make life a joy for me. I thought I'd be a lonely old man, left with an empty space in my heart. I've had my crushes once before, and I'm glad they didn't work out. I think I've found the woman that I will marry. I love her with all my heart and soul, and no one can stop me from being with her to our last days.

I just feel that life is just wonderful. The future still isn't clear to me, but at least I know that she'll be at the end of it, being the lighthouse that'll guide me on through life. At least I know that whatever my destination in life is, I'll always have this one woman who'll be waiting for me with open arms and a big, warm smile.