*sniff* I made someone very angry. One wrong sentence and friendship's all FUBAR. God knows why in the world she felt so personally about this one word that she used on herself a few times as it is... but, yeah, it is my fault for not thinking through my words carefully enough... as always, overestimated how close I am to people... or overestimated how close people think of me, yeah, that's more right..

*sigh* ... Perhaps someday she might understand. Someday. Maybe it's her boyfriend... maybe? I dunno. Ever since she's been seeing him... ah, might just as always be me... maybe I am too blunt, too honest, too trusting, too fuck ass stupid... I'll never know, will I...? Hah, in a few years I'll forget about this maybe.. I dunno... my memory doesn't serve me very well. It forgets important facts and remembers these... these stupid things all the time... *sigh*.

Well... looking on brighter sides of life, today was a bowling tourney day... didn't really play well, but hell I never play well... got 30th place in a tourney of I think 60 people... that's not so bad... but I coulda gotten better I suppose... =\... I saw Amanda and Sueyi skatin' around in the rink today... hahah... something new, I guess... Sueyi certainly has grown... =P, as tall as Amanda I think... which is saying something.. hahah...

Mm... oh well.. times certainly change... for better or for worse... we have only the will to go on...